Page six: What big C did

The big C and me….
Page six
I wrote a little Bio about my life my ex-wife oh the sadness of pages 1 through 5 and more. I could delete it all, but in cyber space it would still exist and so, I did something I should not have done I spoke of her in bitterness. So here and now I apologize to her, for I did so love her so. But also as I said to her, her family as she told me all her friends I was an embarrassment. I was she told me like a stooge maybe Moe perhaps Larry even Curly Joe but most of all I was just a bum. This was a devastating thing to hear that I was hated by so many. They acted like they liked me, but she had spoken so it must all then be true
So yes, I was grateful for the big C. Greatly blessed you might say.
So here is some of what the big C taught me.

a shinning light, a ray of hope, reminders of things not yet lost. remember this: a contrite heart repent return and rest, for grace is sufficient for thee

a shinning light, a ray of hope, reminders of things not yet lost. remember this: a contrite heart repent return and rest, for grace is sufficient for thee

First was Love, then came grace, mercy came with compassion looking forward with some hope and sharing empathy, but most of all was love.
I met a man who wanted to give me last rights, as I lay in intensive care the day,
I had died; my family had come to identify the body,
I told him I am not ready just yet.
Yes, the big C it took body’s strength, but the bigger C gave much more back; I found true love compassion grace as I lay there in that bed. They found my body on the road. The big C had won battle the war however was not yet over.
The C had other plans of which I still do not know full well.
It does not matter if you believe my word .But I must tell you true it happened. The C he called so here I am.
Having cancer is no fun. But even in the lowest place I knew someone was there. Knowing the great C the one called Christ messiah Jesus is a saving grace, he is real he is here the kingdom is now come.
God does not seek the perfect he does not seek the self-righteous he looks and finds the contrite the broken the weakest and the sick. God looks for those who are rejected alone unwanted by the goodly in society.
Many are now thinking he thinks he is so much better than we are. No my friend I am not I still wonder at the why and will I be taken up and allowed to enter. For I still do not have the wedding clothes. There is only one way to salvation one road and blessed is he who seeks it out. Narrow is the way that leads to life.

life braches out in many ways , yet all things lead back to one

life braches out in many ways , yet all things lead back to one

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Skip a rope

the last three roses 2 004Once upon a time, not so long ago:
As a child we heard many odd songs one I encourage you all to take a listen to “Skip a rope” just Google it then listen to it on Spotify music service.
May I please remind you all of the following: We are told by our lord we must become as little children for theirs is kingdom of heaven. Children are innocent but adults sow seeds in his tiny minds they plant they cultivate and groom these mustard seeds until they are grown.
Bigotry is taught hate is taught so those who do not teach love forgive and bless can they claim the kingdom of God? I am one of those evil people who cannot and will not hate a person because they have a better tan then I do. I cannot hate anyone who God has graced with such beauty. If you look at me you will see a racist, for I love the human race in all its many shapes sizes and myriad display of colors. Yes, there are groups who speak the rainbow but even they at times seek the division of separation. Myself I read the word and it says a house divide cannot long stand. Division separation does not serve the whole but the one who becomes lord over the separated.
My apologies if you are offended by my words, but my word can be found in any Bible. That book so few read but claim they have a right to own. Man and his churches have used the word to divide to control to keep in ignorance, but so few tell man that love will set them free. they are told that money give you’ll get, but nary does one hear seek yea love for it is the greatest of the gifts.
Looking at those men who claimed the Christ who espoused violence by not reminding the people of his grace his mercy his forgiving love. They caused great harm and showed who they were. Those who looted burned and beat justifying these acts of hate are not His. Now you will look and point and say I am judging others no just making a call asking those who say they follow and have faith why do you lie for you say Jesus would be there with you smashing burning and stealing. And the self-righteous would say look what he did in the temple. Well he turned over the tables and said it is written…you have made my father’s house a den of thieves. He took nothing he murdered no one. Had you walked in silence because of your concern good, But when you beat others burn and steal well you are criminals no matter the spin and one day you will be held accountable. No really you will, read the book.

And the word said, Love your fellow man as your self. Forgive and live as the Christ forgave

And the word said, Love your fellow man as your self. Forgive and live as the Christ forgave

It has become the manner in these new twenty first century generations of division in their subdivisions to call the thing called indecision a moral high ;there by the shame can be said belong to others. For we are not responsible for what we do others made us, make us, yes, and other forces other people force us to lie steal and destroy. We have become a people of blame retribution and justification. We blame others for our faults and misdeeds. For it is always someone else who is holding us back, it is an unknown foe who rallies Karma and the faiths against all our dreams and hopes…
Some blame Christian on the right for they hold to an absolute they say to murder is wrong they say that we should all respect our parents and our leaders, yes respect the office but not the man but pray for him. To keep loyal to your partner is an evil ideal of these evil people, teaching children to respect other not to be envious or lie or steal these are the evil things Christians teach, they also say you should have one God not make idols and you should honor the name of Jesus. This last one is odd so many get angry when told you should respect him, they say why and when told he is the son of our God they explode. Yet if told by a Muslim to respect their holy Prophet and speak for their god they relent, bow and give praise.
Its seems that we have made an art work out of hate anger and rage we have seen three generation re-define bigotry its lies and its lines. We justify the hate of one because of the near past sins of some yet excuse those selfsame sins in our own past forefathers. For their sin of enslavement was done against those of their own? I n own land? To eliminate and age old enemy? Yes excuses used to justify so It seems the children of the abolitionist are now guilty of the same hates they fought to stop accused by the new generations of those they rendered aid to at the cost of life liberty and freedom
We can stand and watch our neighbor’s child have a tantrum destroying his property smashing his toys and striking out at his parents who told him no. Years later taken out of the hoe in cuffs we stand in awe, not cursing the parent not yelling at them why did you raise him to be such a monster; no we curse the police the prosecutors asking how can you do this to a child so misunderstood.
So what do I predict well chaos, I shall sit and watch and ask why? Why are they so proud of this, why do they act like animals. And I know the answer they have been raised in cold day care centers where human contact and love are metered out on a limited basis and at scheduled intervals as needed. Where they are taught the state the group the system is authority and you are responsible to the state.
May you all be blessed may we all be saved and may all who are his who took part in the riots repent and come back to the proper way. Thank you all. Now this is only some of what Jesus would say..

a shinning light, a ray of hope, reminders of things not yet lost. remember this: a contrite heart repent return and rest, for grace is sufficient for thee

a shinning light, a ray of hope, reminders of things not yet lost. remember this: a contrite heart repent return and rest, for grace is sufficient for thee

Ask a question : two or three

WWJD. this was a burning question some years ago.  It was taught at what is called vacation bible school. But where is it now? Why is it forgotten?  I can answer those question for myself. but why has it been forgotten. Now I can fill pages and pages, but to be direct we as a nation do not want to do what Jesus did. For it would mean being on the outside of all the fun. It would mean standing up for people we do not like who are being persecuted and slandered. We would have to openly display empathy. It would mean turning the other cheek and blessing and praying for those who hate us. No better to join in stand firm and follow the crowd.

But what would Jesus then say? well that is written down in very plain words. you may I may be there standing and saying lord, lord I did this and we did that all in your name for you. His response will be depart from me you workers of iniquity for I know you not.

And the word said, Love your fellow man as your self. Forgive and live as the Christ forgave

And the word said, Love your fellow man as your self. Forgive and live as the Christ forgave

Please excuse me but I must state here that Jesus who is the Christ, Messiah the Lord the first of many the living son of God is my savior; well I hope so.  You see I know my many sins and shame. So am I as the fool or am I like a wise man seeking for the truth. I tell everyone to read it for themselves wipe the dust off the book, read it for it is so amazing, so wonderful, so pleasing in the mouth, but sometimes oh so bitter in ones belly for at times it will sicken you when you realize that which it describes is you, and please talk about it as it says in your coming and going; apply it to your life, pray over it,  but in all things follow these two rules for we are free from the penalty of the law which is death eternal separation from our lord,but if we are his as he say we will keep these commands and decrees:

Love God with your whole heart soul mind and body: be a holy temple for he lives in you. Next Love your fellow man as yourself: do no harm if you do make amends apologize, always in all things up lift and be a blessing. and finally as he was ascending he told them go and do as I have done. It is odd so few do as he has done . Always remember Love covers a multitude of sin or transgressions forgive and live as the Christ for gave

So I offer up the following to you, I keep the way defined by Paul that which Peter said was true yet oh so difficult. Paul was charged with seeking out the Nazarenes’ the followers of the way.  Please I ask you take no offense. For the word Christian means many things today most of them are bad and full of greed. But Paul told the King better to like them but I would that you be more like myself.

Please I offer the following short list of defining words. Thank you all so much may you be blessed…..

In today’s world by worldly man’s terms I am one who is evil vile and filled with hate towards all other. I hide in plain sight and yet I have accosted no one I spoken not a word of evil, but I am called all these many names. So what is my crime? Well is simple for the fool a man or woman who desires to blame and shame another for a choice that they have made. Yet a wise man shakes his head and stands in awe of the foolishness of his fellowman. Now my crime is simply this I follow in the ways of Christ.
I am a Big Old Tool a foolish now old man or to simplify the matter a bigot according to the man and woman of the world those like so many other need desire a scapegoat a group to hate to solidify their cause..
However I hate no one, I do at times disagree with some about certain ideas, their moral codes, and choices, but I cannot hate. For I choose, yes , I make a choice to say: I will not hate, so daily I choose not to hate. To live in peace as much as is possible with all men and if not possible then to leave those who against the way alone and to themselves always treating them with respect and if necessary rendering aid when necessary. Yes I follow Christ and this decree Love your fellow man; bless them who hate you pray for them and do good for them. For these acts and action I am said to be a danger.
You see we choose our path; our way, who we will follow and obey.

life braches out in many ways , yet all things lead back to one

life braches out in many ways , yet all things lead back to one

This means I stand outside the mainstream Christian community, but I am not acceptable to man’s world either, so I am a tweener. To neither side do I conform for I choose the third most unlikely way.
I cannot accept all mankind and yet I pray and bless and help them all seeking only for their best their happiness even if I disagree with a choice that they have made. I cannot condemn a men. For judgment comes from one and I am not the one.
I can only judge those within my circle and only to guide and remind them of the way in which we have chosen to conduct our lives.

Necessary defining terms:
1. Bigot: One who treats the members of a group with hatred and intolerance; one who is obstinately devoted to their opinion’s and prejudices
2. Prejudice: a preconceived idea of another, an unwarranted opinion
3. Obstinate: perversely devoted to a purpose opinion or way in spite of reason
4. Perverse: turned away from what is right or good: has become corrupt
5. Petulant: is to be cranky of ill regard; insolent of rude behavior and speech towards others.
Things God hates.
Do you fit any of these defined ways of thinking?
Can you still say you are tolerant in your daily life?
For my friend if you claim to follow the Christ and his ways; then you cannot be any of these and yet if you justify anyone of these then you do not belong to the one called Christ.
Do you in your actions display toleration for others. If not then you may be a liar.

Now read this carefully:
I must add this the human race for me and mine has no color code; it has no divisions and or forms of separation. We are humans in a race, we are made of many colors, shapes, and sizes; diversity in its forms of beauty makes a rainbow of us all. None is better, none is less, and we are here to assist each other; yes to insure we reach our highest potential.
Now we find this written in the word Wisdom she calls out, first among the created I speak now to the simple minded and I call out to the foolish:

Whoso ever is simple, let him turn in hither: As for him that is void of understanding, I wisdom say to him, Come, eat ye of my bread, and drink of the wine which I have mingled. Leave off, ye simple ones, and live; and walk in the way of understanding. He that corrects a ridiculer gets to himself insulting; and he that reproves a wicked man [gets] himself a blemish. Reprove not a scoffer, lest he hate thee: Reprove a wise man, and he will love thee.

So the end of the matter is thus written try and teach a fool and you will contend with a brick wall; offer wise council to a man of wisdom and you win a friend for life.

It comes

Judgment
Tried by fire
Oh the washing
Oh the mighty fire
One day soon
Judgment
Comes
We the people
Shall face the judge
Not for testing
To be proofed
a holly righteous people
Too all his judgment well then show his word is true

So ask yourself while there is yet timethe last three roses 2 004
Proverbs 28
5. They that forsake the law (the ten, two and the one) praise the wicked: but such as keep the law contend with them.
6. Evil men understand not judgment: but they that seek the LORD understand all things.
9. He that turns away his ear from hearing the law, even his prayer shall be abomination

What is an abomination?
What means this word stench?
I have given them a new spirit, in my mercy.
One which makes them happy within their chosen sin.
These are words of a loving God about people who have and do deny him.
These are the words Paul wrote in Romans; he then describes what sins they choose.
These men and women have chosen to defile themselves in ways the apostle called unnatural or unseemly. Indecorous in conflict with accepted ways. But always as a justification to their ways their worship leaders cite John 3 verse 16, always rejecting all else. Even Satin and his Demons believe Jesus is the Christ the living son of the one true God. And so it was written:

life braches out in many ways , yet all things lead back to one

life braches out in many ways , yet all things lead back to one

That whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have eternal life. For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. For God sent not his Son into the world to condemn the world; but that the world through him might be saved. He that believes on him is not condemned: but he that believes not is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God. This is the condemnation, that light has come into the world, and men loved darkness rather than light, because their deeds were evil. For everyone that does evil hates the light, neither do they come to the light, lest their evil deeds should be exposed. But he that loves truth comes to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest (obvious, readily revealed), that they are worked in God.
So we hear the cry of John 3:16 yet never what is defined nor asked of us.
What must one do be willing to give up, surrender for this grace, this mercy?
What have you been taught by men; has the choice this path been easy or has it perhaps been hard?
What have you changed since receiving grace? What sin, what ways, have you then given up, and so surrendered to be acceptable deserving of his full pardon grace.
God in his showering you with his unconditional love reminds us ever so very subtly, reminds us that those who do evil cannot love him so cannot receive his grace. It is the boldest of the liars who willingly hijack what is not theirs and so place a stumbling block in the way of others with their false teachings.
Thus the new truth is something man defines and chooses for himself.
He wants it his way; man has his chosen ways a path so wide teaching all is good all is acceptable to god and so he defines god in his own terms.

a shinning light, a ray of hope, reminders of things not yet lost. remember this: a contrite heart repent return and rest, for grace is sufficient for thee

a shinning light, a ray of hope, reminders of things not yet lost. remember this: a contrite heart repent return and rest, for grace is sufficient for thee

Worldly man has made an entity like he himself like he would be if he were god.
Yes, god is long-suffering, quick to always forgive, but is the man you know, you yourself like that. God has said be holy as I am Holy; are you? God has said I cannot nor will I entertain any sin yet man thinks grace is an easy pass and he can keep his chosen ways and the blood of purity is his and he must not change or become Holy. To sin filled man the price of the redeemer paid will wash away the stench and abomination of these new life styles and all they must do is say Jesus is the Christ.
Here is a tease you will bow you will praise him and he will say depart from me; check it out. While there is still time.

While walking

As I went out a walking early in the morn; Oh it was about the midnight hour, later at the third I thought I heard the blasting of a horn, the sun was going down as the moon did shine so bright, the sky was dark there was no light. Was then I heard another horn a trumpet sounding once or twice; no maybe more was it then perhaps the sixth or even then the seventh. The sun had fled away, now the sky rolled up, the stars they did fade away. An emptiness did fill me, then fear it came, a deep terror filled the minds and hearts of all mankind for they realized the time was near. The ending had begun. Some did cry on bended knees many more did shout and curse that it was all unfair. From deep within their caves built of sand and clay some of rock and iron the men and women of all states refused and so defied the truth. For in their arrogance the cursing the creator went on all the more; in rage and anger they did shout God he does not exist so cannot tell me what to do or how it is that I should live. I heard the cry of the social Christian who had a sunny Sunday seat; crying out and asking why not me, why did I get left behind to suffer in the wrath and terror; Oh did I not do my very best? Look how much I paid for my Sunday best, I know I should have made it I have an easy pass.

we never walk alone

we never walk alone

I went out a walking later in the day; oh the darkness in the twilight of that cold hot night; the fire the rage of man was burning all around, was then I found a man, one of many sorrows; who asked me, but one question; he who knew my answer and held the answer to all the question of the ages. Now I heard a sound so quiet, I heard these words once whispered, love it conquers all; but a man of pride, all mankind in his envy will not realize that he is the created, just a creature given breath and yet he is so much loved.
However as I looked I saw mankind:
Seeking always with his fist so clenched, he curses and defies; then at the trumpets sounding; still he does not hear, but he cries out all the more, with fists clenched tighter, eyes wide shut, ears stopped up with mighty words and thoughts of his what ifs.
Man he cries It’s Me and mine, just go away, leave me alone, to do it my own way; I made myself oh don’t you see; don’t you see I understand it’s me alone not you. Pride once planted grows into a mighty curse; for like a cancer pride it grows it brings man to his fall; yes his destruction comes from within himself. Man he judges only one, not all men realize, but all will know the shame that day as the light burn bright and darkness flees away for in his final day in that final hour he judges only one, he is the surest witness at the trial of but one; himself.
He gives his testimony to all that he has done and left undone ….Yes I went out a walking in a dark and brightly lit cold night that was a day of reckoning for me. I found myself; a wanting, sorely lacking, much I did not know with a desire of and for so much. I plead my case I gave my all, but I found I was I had fallen short the gap to cross was far too wide no matter what I tried. Yet at my side I found the one I almost lost, he who went and gave for me, who paid the price for my life, once I went out walking what I saw oh what I found I carry in my memory the words are written on my heart to share. Love the lord and love your fellowman he looked at me and said if your mine it is written you and all shall keep my father’s commands just these two defined by ten given by the one.
All will be given a chance to enter, not all will come you see for the way is narrow and man he chooses not to see for in hearing he gains some wisdom as small as a mustard seed but man is foolish and will not hear the calling of her from the roof tops, seek me first while I am yet near; For I am wisdom I will teach you with my sister prudence come you near to hear. Fear the lord is the start of all good teaching.
Many seek a truth that is easily found and sound, but man is a fickle creature who was given freedom and the choice. Life or death two ways so why is it that the foolish always choose the latter then complain how Gods unfair………………………Choose life my child seek the the two, then hold the ten and look always to the one; remember that the third is:  to do as he has done.

A story told ignored by man

The boundaries were set at the time of creation

The boundaries were set at the time of creation

Long ago the prophet Jeremiah gave a warning
The people did not want to hear; he said he lived in fear; for each time he spoke his life it was in danger. The people were a stiff neck lot, they lived in pride and rejected God. Oh they sought him when they wanted, but otherwise they simply gave him lip service; as they poured out offerings to gods of foreign lands. Yet he spoke and was accused of being filled with hate for he told them they were in danger they needed to repent return and ask of God forgiveness. But pride with arrogance ruled them so.

They refused to see they refused to hear
Their gods they choose would protect them
They worshiped wood they gave praise to stone
They burn and fed and gave praise to the Queen of heaven
All of this against the word
Seems that some in their perverse way
Burned their young in fire seeking their new gods favor

God said no, God said stop, but none would hear. For man he knows so much man he has created, but man has forgotten from wench he came who gave him breath of life.

I look out on our society and in its pride, man’s sinful way is in full bloom; there are those who choose to murder their own young for they are seeking their own truth. Life to the majority has been weighted and as such in the scales of want innocent life came out lacking of no true  value ,but praise for self, the me and mine is elevated above all else.

Past then present ,oh the future days are here
Yet we as a people do not see
But not long ago:
A new people claimed the word
For a time this people they did thrive
They now do turn to the old ways
They seek the most perverse way of life
Again this new people are hard of heart
As cold as ice, they refuse to see and will not hear
Oh their self-pride has blinded them
They fail to see the truth
They wish to make God low
To make themselves greater than the creator

They say we and I, me and mine
Oh I have been blessed: I am not rich?
Some may say that I am poor
But I have all that I do need
Some now say I rage in anger
No I plead I beg
I ask that you heed the warning
Yet so many want so much and more
While I am happy with all I have
So I am called a fool
Yet I know Paul the man of God
Who knew Christ?
I believe in Jesus

There are those of the Mega faiths
Who preach about the getting of much wealth?
Who promise those who follow them that if they give that they will get
Those who claim, those who promise, the new follower that they will be blessed with earthly treasure

The word it says:
Store up your treasure where? In heaven where dust and rust cannot touch
None can touch it where? In heaven friend; the place is safe secure under the watchful eye of Christ
In a place where rust and dust can do no harm; where is this place?
Seek God first in all ways
Place your faith in his promises
Look for wisdom and her sister prudence

There are six things God detests and wisdom says there are seven things he hates.
Have you then considered what they are? 1. Liars 2. Thieves 3. Licentious people’s 4. Murders 5.those who love the foul words, oh the modern man’s new slang. That all manner of men boldly share and take pride in; then they profane their child with their encouragement of their use of these derogatory words.
6. Idolater’s, 7. Adulators

Christ said be thee Holy for I am holy, follow after me my way. Seek me now while there is yet a little time; for the days draws near that all should fear………..

And the word became flesh

Now it is written, the Christ may ask; so be ready with your response. Or simply say as many will as they bow low with tears now streaming, we failed for we did our will.
Jesus said, if you had but the faith the size of a mustard seed; oh these things that you could see and do.
Now it was written way back then, that even now wolves had entered in among the Saints; men filled with the spirit anti to the Christ to pull the weak, the feeble-minded away from the truth of the way.
Ask yourself these questions:
Do you enjoy the new and modern voyeuristic life style; watching man do his worst to defeat and humiliate another?
Do you enjoy the peep show view; found on the blue hued screens in living rooms and bedrooms?
Do you devote your days and nights to gods and goddess of Holy wood; whose life style you then seek to emulate?
Do you perhaps love old Detroit, a football, basketball, or other team? You celebrate and make idols of them?
Yes, man has created many gods to fill his life all to replace the truth of Christ.
So are you a worldly man? celebrating mankind’s way of eat drink and be merry.

In the Proverbs this is written
How wisdom she does cry out to the foolish to those who choose the wide path the easy way which leads to death:
Proverbs 8
She speaks the truth, she says she hates lies, and truth is on her lips.
She dwells with prudence her sister. And reminds those who seek wisdom to do the following:
To fear (love, respect) the most high is to hate all evil
For our Lord says thusly:
I hate pride, arrogance, all evil behavior and perverse speech.

It is written in the word their sins shall rain down upon them day and night.
Why man he laughs and makes his jests for he follows Holy wood in thinking of Satin who is now depicted as a vile horned creature, when he is a spirit of bright and shining light; the deceiver of the many of the multitude comes to the foolish as a shinning light oh so bright.

a shinning light, a ray of hope, reminders of things not yet lost. remember this: a contrite heart repent return and rest, for grace is sufficient for thee

a shinning light, a ray of hope, reminders of things not yet lost. remember this: a contrite heart repent return and rest, for grace is sufficient for thee

Oh how sad that Man will follow as he does what he thinks is beauty and never looking closer nor asking questions its then too late to realize what is before them is a lie. John says he saw the following: for he says:
I saw an angel flying high above, speaking all manner of prideful things; yes, full of sin and evil.
I wonder what the lord would say when we have been given so many clues of the final days and we are so blind and deaf not to know the truth.
I wonder why man refuses yet to see that two thousand years is just two days.
I wonder then I cringe to think that people look for a singular anti-Christ; when it says those them they are filled with a spirit anti to the Christ, wow what a concept they are anti to or against the ways of the Christ. Ever seeking to bring God down and like Satin to raise themselves above the most high.
I look for I do see a linear progression of the things which are happening as it was written so long ago.
Oh the plagues the wars the pestilence the Black Death; the birth pain of the coming hour the last day.
Have they are now taking place.
Master tell us what shall be the sign given and he said……………